Pictures! here's just a few. I have some of my favorites on my other camera and will upload them soon. God, it's so weird being here, yet so wonderful. I've had a chance to really think about my life and get back on track i feel like. Though, it's been hard in light of the last time i was here. So much, even most, i would venture to say, of last years fondest memories were here. I wake up some mornings and just laugh now... others i cry because of the mistakes i made here. It's been a hard healing experience for me. It's like being in the same house
your father died in for the first time in years. Or the seeing of an old family member and having to explain your unexpected divorce. I left things here. Good memories and bad ones. Choices here brought me to the life i'm living now, and though wonderful, i am living a different adventure now, than i would have lived if things went differently here. This was a testing ground for me, and a turning point based on how i passed that test. I do regret, but i won't stay saddened by my lack of wisdom. I have learned a lot, and if ever offered the chance to re-live that old
dream again, I would not pass it up. This is truly a magical place, a place where tears flowed the next morning; and almost now as i write. Forgiveness is by far, the lesson to be learned here this time around. Of all that i've learned, forgiving myself is by far the hardest thing for me here. I am sitting in the same rooms i said things i never should have that affected my love and my life. it's like the walls remember every word.
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