Alas, My Life

To be, or not to be? To go, or not to go? To stay, or not to stay? Alas, my life begs for direction. It longs for something i don't have, that is desicion.

I'm still in NY. I was supposed to be headed home soon, but i dont know now. The friend that was supposed to come and get me on sunday, has sense came up with other plans and i don't think is an option. He has to drop his friend in DC and there isn't room for me in the truck. I could try and get to DC, but that in itself requires so much more effort (a ride into the city :$20.00 + a subway ticket 3.00 + bus to DC $30.00 = $53.00 not to mention i'd be having to load, unload, and carry all of my bags and guitar all over NYC then arrive in DC where i'd have to wait to be picked up again. Uh. I'm exausted. I found a train that leaves from where i am on monday at 9pm and arrives seventeen hours later in Savannah GA for $195.00 or if i stay here another week, i could get the same train at a special rate $85.00. Niether of which i'm excited about. I don't want to spend 195.00, but i don't want to have to stay another week. I'm working here at this crooked candy shop in New Paltz NY now, and could come home with more money in my pocket if i waited.... but there are two jobs in Savannah I want to be there for that are openning up for hire this week. If i'm not there, i'm not going to get either. Oh, the options.

Anyway, i want to tell you about my time here. I'll worry about getting home later.

New Palts is a beautiful city. I'm glad i came and got to experience another part of the US and see an old friend. It's a complete hippy town and everyone has been super geat to me. Some of the girls took me hiking, around town, bar hopping and just hanging out on main st.
There is a place here called the gardens; just a big field where farmers rent a plot, 12x12 or whatever and plant things. The travelers are alloud to go by and hellp harvest for food and keep the over run unkept food for themselves. The's also good camping near by.

I spent a lot of time just chillin' on Main St. with my guitar talking to other local bored hippies. lol like this guy>>> Andrew is one of the local artists. Cool guy.
This is a good shot of the strip. I played at this cafe'.

The rail trail was fun. It connects three citys here. New Paltz is in the center. It's beautiful during the day and is quite the party spot at night (no it's not leagal to be there at night, but no one seems to care).

Me and and an awesome girl named Emily wondered all day on the rail trail this past wednesday and decided to take a shortcut. lol we wondered up into this guys farm. they didn't say anything... but we noticed the "trespass and your dead signs" after we let ourselves out of their gate. 

Then there was the Four Loco party. Ha, JUST SAY NO!

they are banning this drink soon so some of the kids in town baught a few cases and cellebrated it's last few weeks here in NY. I see why they are banning it, as i blacked out at some point between the band in the basement, and the blacklit room upstairs. Aparently, i wasn't the only one! It was a hell of a party. There is a time for everthing i guess, but that will be my one and only experience with Four Loko. Took me three days to recover, and this girl took a week! Just say no. lol

Soon it will be almost a month i've be gone and i've had a fun haze of a time. Lot's of drinking under the bridge, wondering, standing outside, meeting randome people, but i'm ready to go I think. This town is a moderately open hippy village, but there's always that point where it's time to move on. And it's that time.

I've got to get back to Georgia so i can be ready for my next trip. The bus is about ready to go... again! lol And i miss a few people there. (You know who you are!) I'll upload more pictures of NYC chinna town later. That was cool too. So however i get home, i hope to do so within a week or so. I'd like to be around for christmas.... though i've gotten the offer to go to Colorodo for Christmas, i don't know yet.

Wherever the wind blows.

May we all learn to ride well. 

Don't go where the trail leads, but go where it doesn't lead, and leave a trail.

NYC!! Like wow.

So... i've been here in NYC for five minutes and i freaking love it!  The bus let out at China Town right infront of what looked like an abandoned building... but no. it was a Coffee Shop!!! Thank god! And who was behind the counter but one of the most handsome men i've ever seen! lol Yep. I like New York. lol

So, I have to find my other bus station that will take me out of town into the town where my friend lives. New Pauls. I'm not so excited about leaving this coffee shop! I'm thought about busking a little downtown, but I've all but decided to save that for another day and just sight see today. Uh Oh. I think i'm gonna really like New York.

Siler City Pictures!

 Pictures! here's just a few. I have some of my favorites on my other camera and will upload them soon. God, it's so weird being here, yet so wonderful. I've had a chance to really think about my life and get back on track i feel like. Though, it's been hard in light of the last time i was here. So much, even most, i would venture to say, of last years fondest memories were here. I wake up some mornings and just laugh now... others i cry because of the mistakes i made here. It's been a hard healing experience for me. It's like being in the same house

 your father died in for the first time in years. Or the seeing of an old family member and having to explain your unexpected divorce.  I left things here. Good memories and bad ones. Choices here brought me to the life i'm living now, and though wonderful, i am living a different adventure now, than i would have lived if things went differently here. This was a testing ground for me, and a turning point based on how i passed that test. I do regret, but i won't stay saddened by my lack of wisdom. I have learned a lot, and if ever offered the chance to re-live that old

dream again, I would not pass it up. This is truly a magical place, a place where tears flowed the next morning; and almost now as i write. Forgiveness is by far, the lesson to be learned here this time around. Of all that i've learned, forgiving myself is by far the hardest thing for me here. I am sitting in the same rooms i said things i never should have that affected my love and my life. it's like the walls remember every word.

In Chapel Hill NC!!! Yo!

I'll post pictures soon, but i'm having a blast here in Chapel Hill NC. I hit the streets around three and played until five scoring a good twenty bucks! Yeah buddy! I'm so happy to spend that on a cold beverage. lol

I haven't had this good a time sense Ashville. People gave me flowers, took pictures, and offered drugs (to which i declined - today. lol!) Now i'm hold up at the 'Blue Horn Lounge' where they want me to play next Sunday. I lost my job in Savannah Ga, so i'm pretty open and on the road right now. Got an offer to get to NYC and may take it. Who knows!? I'm thinking it would be a good idea for just a minute. I have to head back to Savannah in a few weeks regardless.

HERMAN UPDATE!!!!

Just got a call... Tim- "You think this thing was scary to drive at forty five, try it at seventy five!!!" I was having problems with the gas peddle sticking and not engaging enough. It works now buddy! Only, i have to get the front wheel-bearing fixed ASAP! Otherwise i could see my front tire sliding past me on the interstate pretty soon. Wow that would be crazy!

So life is good. Not as good as I plan it to be though. I've been fortunate these past few weeks, in spite of loosing my job in savannah. But i've found that a blessing more than a curse, freeing me up to do some things that have been on the back burner for a moment now.

Got some great pictures with some fans downtown on Franklyn St. Will post in a day or so.
Miss you guys!

I JUST WANNA GO!!! BUT I DON"T???

So herman is almost ready!!! God i've had a time with him... just like the rest of the men in my life; but we're hitting the road soon! I'm still leaking oil and had some other issues, but thank god i found a fellow lover of Vdubs!!! He's going to teach me what i don't know and help me get him road ready! Yay! God, i'm ready to hit the road!

.... but...

   I have found myself in a place here that I haven't had in a long time. I change my mind from day to day... and i'm still going. I have to. But i may be back to this town. I love it here actually. I have found a good group of friends. I can go out alone and always find people that know me and have a good time with. I have people i can talk to here. I feel like i have made a mark in a way in this town. People come to my shows, i've just met a whole other crowd of musicians to jam with, and I enjoy my coffee shop. i own this town! lol
but the nitch isn't good enough for me to stay i guess. I get so restless. Always searching for that something, some reason to go, or stay.