No Body Loves You

Eric Clapton said it best when describing the irony of self pity. "Nobody loves you when your down and out". A song originally written by Jimmy Cox flooded the mainstream in the early seventies; and is still among one of the most well known covers to this day. I feel that Eric was making love to John Lennon's "Nobody loves you" when he wrote this song. Echoing the same feelings and almost the same words.

"Nobody loves you when your old and grey
nobody needs you when you're upside down
\ everybody's hollerin' bout their own birthday
everybody loves you when your six feet in the grownd" -John

Ever wonder what people would say at your funeral? what would i say at mine? did i do everything i wanted to with my life? see all i could see? what would my regrets be?

I've been thinking about these things a lot. Probably more than i should cause i'm still up and it's freakin' three AM.


That's my new theme song for the past week. I've lost a lot of friends and gained many over the past year. It's crazy; I think all of us have this place in our lives.

If you want to see who your friends are, leave them. And if they still remember your face in a year, you've got something. But more times than not, it's the people you just met, that offer you their coat, and take you in their arms; they are your friends. Most people, outta sight, outta mind. I'm that way all too often also. I have found myself guilty. But i long to perfect who i am.

Traveling, if nothing else, has restored my faith in humanity. The kindness and generosity found by a total stranger is something i marvel at. The hard ones, the tough ones to love are the ones we know and have history with. We've had time to get to know them and be hurt by them. Holding that resentment, i look forward to the day when i can still hand an old friend my coat, as if he were a perfect stranger.

I feel like i've traveled so much, i have no place that is home. Nothing is what i need in that moment. So i keep going. Running down this open road looking. I feel that if i stay in one spot to long, i get stagnate. lol i told someone today, if i were to stay in an empty town for too long, i would be the worst alcoholic ever! I have to keep myself alive. I hope i find it traveling this trip.

"Each city is like the next if you have no ties keeping you there. The wind will continue to blow me away. Farther from finding a place to rest."